From such a connection she could not wonder that he would shrink. The wish of procuring her regard, which she had assured herself of his feeling in Derbyshire, could not in rational expectation survive such a blow as this. She was humbled, she was grieved; she repented, though she hardly knew of what. She became jealous of his esteem, when she could no longer hope to be benefited by it. She wanted to hear of him, when there seemed the least chance of gaining intelligence. She was convinced that she could have been happy with him, when it was no longer likely they should meet.
– Jane Austen
Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 50. After Elizabeth learns that Lydia will marry Wickham, she takes the opportunity to think more deeply about her feelings for Darcy. While her rival for Darcy’s affections Caroline Bingley is jealous of her, Elizabeth is only jealous of winning Darcy’s admiration. She longs for him and wants to hear of him. But she is fearful that his feelings for her in Derbyshire will not survive the scandal with Lydia. Now that Wickham has married into the Bennet family, she expects that Darcy will keep his distance from her. Is Elizabeth at last realizing that she is hopelessly in love with Darcy?