It’s really too bad that so much crumby stuff is a lot of fun sometimes.
– J. D. Salinger
The Catcher in the Rye. Holden in Chapter 9. He finds it hard to deal with a big paradox in his life – he wants to share intimacy with a girl but sees sex as dirty and feels guilty about his sexual fantasies. While he likes sex and is obsessed with it, he is also a prude and fights to remain innocent. Any sex act is “crumby” to Holden. This leaves him with a big identity problem, as he tries to put himself in situations where he can have sex but pulls back from exactly those kind of situations. So he often sabotages his chances to have sex, like when he is with the prostitute.