What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of a good-by. I mean I’ve left schools and places I didn’t even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don’t care if it’s a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I like to know I’m leaving it. If you don’t, you feel even worse.
– J. D. Salinger
The Catcher in the Rye. Holden Caulfield in Chapter 1. Holden is a sensitive boy with strong feelings. He attaches importance to feelings. He feels terrible for flunking out of his fourth school and disgracing himself with the fencing team.