The next day he did not leave the house, and, indeed, spent most of the time in his own room, sick with a wild terror of dying, and yet indifferent to life itself.

– Oscar Wilde

The Picture of Dorian Gray, Chapter 18. The day after spotting James Vane’s face in the window of his country home and fainting with the fright, Dorian doesn’t leave the house. He is filled with terror at the thought of dying at the hands of Vane in revenge for his sister’s suicide. But at the same time he doesn’t care about his life.